Writing. Me. A Writer. Someday. Today.

I had a discussion with a young lady at lunch today. This girl has more talent and sweetness in one toe than i do in my entire being. We were discussing our majors and such. The topic of my ache to be a writer came up. I mentioned how i felt like there was a load of pressure for me to go to school to be a writer. I mentioned how discouraging this could be. As we were talking she said something very profound to me; "I'm pretty sure Jane Austen didn't go to school to learn to be a writer. She already had it in her." This statement has led me to have a little more hope in my writing. She mentioned how her husband does what he loves, and he has a degree in something he doesn't mind doing. I loved that. I could do so many things but I really love writing. It feels more right to me than talking. (and those of you who know me know how much i love talking)

I've always been able to express myself through my writing. If I'm not writing, I'm not breathing. Since lunch with this sweet young lady, I believe that I can do this. I'm excited! On the train ride home i wrote two poems and started on a chapter of my book. I'm grateful for the inspired people who tend to surround me. In a letter I received from one of my best friends, he said that i always seemed happier around certain people. I'm sure its true, but mainly I just LOVE people.

As absent minded as i can be, i still make an effort to see that the people i meet and come to call my friends, acquaintances, family, or even enemies are aware that i think they have a purpose and that they are important. Whether the purpose is serving me a cup of tea or giving me the time of day to vent about something that's upsetting me or making me happy, I would like them to know that they are appreciated. My best friend said that as human beings we NEED to be validated. I couldn't agree more. I know that when I've had a horrid day and someone opens the door or says thank you that I feel a little if not a great deal better. As people we don't validate each other enough, I'm guilty of this. I know that on more than one occasion I've gotten upset over something someones' done wrong instead of stepping back and saying "This person has made an effort to help of please me, and I should thank them. Even if what they've done isn't what I thought up in my head."

Lets face it, not everything I make up in my head is logical. Whats more important is that I, Martha Castillo, recognize the tender mercies that I'm graced with everyday. Starting with my family, then my friends, and then the strangers I meet on the street. Which are just the friends I've never met. So to everyone reading this, in the mind and heart of Martha Castillo, you are validated and appreciated. Why? One, because many of you who are reading this are the people who are the reason I'm here. You had more faith in me that I did, and you love me more than I can ever repay you. I'm the luckiest person ever, because of you. Two, because you're breathing. If you live, breathe, hurt, laugh, cry, dream, fail, succeed, believe, give, and take; well then you and I are the same. That means you have the same right as I do to be appreciated. And finally, Because I said so! Well that's the post for today, I'm still looking for topics. Email any you have to martha_castillo12@hotmail.com Big Love and Thanks!

-MC

Lets begin, My name is Martha...

Well, shall we start with introductions;

My name is Martha. I am a native of Salt Lake City, Utah. I am a young college student attempting to arrange and live my life to the very fullest. I am a writer at heart, it seems to be my only real talent.Even then I'm positive I've much to learn.

My recent trip to the nations capitol, I met very influential people. Who had a genuine interest in what I wanted to do. Being asked these questions I find myself at a loss for words. I just know I want to help people. I want to do it through my writing, my words, my art and my music. More than anything I want to do it through the way i live my life. I'm a huge advocate for service, I'm not looking for Thank Yous for the service I give. My only hope is that one day, the people I've helped recognize that "someone" helped them and that they be the "someone" to help another in need. Serving is something I believe we should all value, it is a priceless commodity we take for granted. It is something that binds us together as a Human race.

Enough about my ideals for a bit, you will hear more of them in the future. This blog is my attempt at public writing and feed back. I plan on it being just stream of thought and experience. I can guarantee that it will not always be serious or deep. It may just be the stories and adventures of occurrences in my daily life. Don't be too startled if you find blogs about my mates and I doing things that embarrass even us. I hope if anything you will relate, laugh, go and try it for yourself, or tell me how you would've done differently. Its entirely your choice, but your feedback and your interest is what I value. If you have suggestions about what i should post, or are wanting an opinion on something. if i have one I'm more than willing to give you my interpretation. I hope that I can benefit anyone with this blog other than myself. It is what I want to do with my life, I guess this is just a start and test run. If I want to help people through my writing might as well start now, right?

Here is my early thank you, for the future support and success of this blog.

It is genuinely appreciated. Truly.

-MC