Today. August 25 2010.

Today i started school again...YAY!!

Actually it was extremely stressful and a little overwhelming.

But i am taking that all in stride.

One major thought I had was about education in general.

This was broken into three minor thoughts:

1. Education should be free.

2.Everyone deserves this opportunity.

3.Someday...

1.Education should be free:

Okay, so whos been a student lately? Its ridiculous the amount that students have to pay for an education these days. Thank God for financial aid, but some people aren't that lucky and don't get a scholarship or financial aid. Its a super unhappy median that I have seen to many of my amazing friends fall into. Our government only does so much, and its such an injustice to so many out there just trying to get a start on their education. For many students money makes it hard to start and finish school. Between tuition, fees,cost of living,books, laptops, and travel it all really just piles up. It can be really overwhelming. I am super lucky, but I know people who aren't and I feel for them. I try not to take my education for granted. I know I do sometimes, and I am trying to fix that.

2.Everyone deserves this opportunity.

Even the people who don't want it. I believe that education doesn't just nurture your brain, but I think it should prepare you to be a better person. I think that the things you learn in school should be things that won't just be useful in your career, but they should help you become a better brother,sister,mother,father,parent,child,friend,neighbor, and citizen. I see way to many people with high and mighty degrees who know NOTHING about being an actual person. I believe in community. Community means teaching, growing, LEARNING, and striving together as a group. Education should be our first start. One of the reasons I have really come to like SLCC. People come there from every walk of life. There are people there who are kids just like me starting school to help start our futures. There are people with families and who just want to make their lives better. There are people who are returning students who want to change careers or just be more comfortable. I see young men returning from missions and are just getting ready to adjust back to real life. There are students who aren't from this country who just want a decent education and this is what they can afford. Everyone deserves an education. To be allowed to have your mind enlightened is a gift. Again, I am lucky.

3.Someday...

I want to open a community learning center and school. Its one of my biggest dreams. I want it to be a place where anyone can come and be educated. I want it to be locally run. A true community endevor. i dream that AA meetings, help with depression, grief, and different support groups can be held. Crap happens, and its nice to be able to go to a place and meet people who you might never have anything in common with but perhaps you share the same vice,grief, or problems. It reminds us that we are all human. And we all bleed. One beautiful thing about the human spirit is that when one of us falls into the gutter,it is in our nature to help them out. Its what seperates us from the animals. If we don't help another out from time to time, then we are all in the gutter. I want this school to be a place for free thinking. For art and music to florish. For people to share their passions and successes. I want it to be a place where you can get information. Where you can know the best local spots for any of your needs. I really want this community center to help with our local economy in any way possible. I want this to be a welcoming, safe, fun, and helpful place. Full of caring and genuinly concerened people. This is my dream. I think about it everyday. I really hope it is something I achieve in my life time.

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"I'm bringing sexy back..." "Knock it off! your fogging up the windows!"

My super special best friends are well...special.

My summer was a sasquatchgingerlumberjack filled summer.

You know who you are.

One of these two I have known for nearly three years, the other I met at the beginning of summer. This is by far the best trio I have ever been apart of. You take two of the most down to earth people, throw some Martha into the mix and BAM! You get us! They are great, truly.

We spent a lot of this summer together. Hiking and having all sorts of adventures.

The one though that brings a big smile to my face is the one in which were we stayed up late watching scary movies[descent], trying to keep sasquatch from breaking his kitchen cupboard and making fish fajitas. Even though my tall sasquatch nearly took my head off because I scared him, it was a fun time. Over all these two kids helped make my summer amazing. They are here for me. Especially when things got super rough there for a bit. We were talking about how rough things were, and one of us mentioned we kinda needed to redo this summer. I agree but disagree. Mainly because I would redo it because of how awesome it ended up being. But then I wouldn't because somethings that have come to pass and how things have turned out have made the three of us stronger people. I have a new confidence because of these people. They are awesome.

I look forward to more adventures with these mates.

From hiking,biking(eventually),traveling,camping,cooking,nerf wars,nutella,building random crap,scary movies,kettle corn,coffee,poetry,and virtual pinky swears.

I love them both deeply and am reminded daily of how lucky I am to have them in my life.

To my darling ginger and dearest sasquatch. I and. Love and. You.

End of summer...Remembering

So this will take quite a few posts to get done. So everyone put on your seat belts open those cans of coke and enjoy the ride.

The beginning of summer was interesting to me. I didn't really know what to do with myself. I was moving away from a group of friends and gaining a bunch of new ones. I had also had a pretty interesting and not very fun fall and spring. Needless to say when summer reared its head I was terrified. Lost with little direction. So I decided that if there was one thing I needed desperately was a change. i discovered a lot about myself. I was by myself quite a bit and really enjoyed it.

The people I met and sort of re-met.

I made some amazing new friends this summer. Friends I know I will want to be in my life forever.

My best friend introduced me to another friend of hers. The three of us bonded immediately. He is this tall Norwegian handy man and super outdoorsy cool. This is one of the greatest people i have ever met. Really generous, and really kind. Afraid of scary movies but that's alright with me. I am super lucky to have a friend like this in my life. He reminds me of how strong I really am and how I can survive anything life hands me. Its good to have someone like this to remind me to be myself. Pretty sure I can count on our trio for anything.

I made a reconnection with an old friend. She's amazing. I am really glad she and I have become closer. She is one of the most beautiful people I have ever met. Intelligent, kind, logical, an activist. One of those people I know are pushing the same direction I am. Fighting the good fight. I trust this person with so many of my feeling i hide from everyone else. She gives me loads of hope in everything. I know that no matter what I tell her there are no judgements. I am truly safe with this person. I am reminded of how it feels to be absolutely human. I can freely show raw emotions and thoughts. Having a friend like this means taking yourself apart piece by piece and willingly give it to another. Her example makes me want to be a better a person, friend, sister, daughter, neighbor, volunteer, student, and artist. This person believes in me and that means so much more than I could ever explain. Did I mention she introduced me to a truly beautiful person as well?

This amazing friend introduced me to a true free spirit. This guy is too cool for words. I felt an instant friendship with this boy. He's warm, friendly, and makes you feel super lucky to be yourself just because you know him. I met this kid the day before he set out on some amazing travels. He made me instantly want to go pack a bag and go where ever the wind blows. I wish I could be that free. I feel to often that I tie myself down before I even take flight. I used to blame this valley I live in but I know its my own insecurity. I am afraid of dreaming sometimes because the thing I fear even more is failure. If there is one thing I have learned from this amazing person is when you are yourself, allow your mind to be open, and love unconditionally you can fight any fear. He is someone who loves life and every single bit about the experience. I need to just get up and go. My adventure is waiting and meeting this kid has made me want to give it a head start!

I am jumping into my fall semester of college tomorrow. I am taking every opportunity I have at SLCC to learn and grow. I know there are two things that every bird needs, a nest and wings. I am learning here in Utah and it will always be my nest. SLCC will always be my first start to how I want my life to go. It will be where, when my story is being rewritten in 5 years that it all began. My education, my dreams, my failures, my hopes, my book, my music and most of all where I started to realize who I am and who I want to be.

Now this bird is anxious for her wings to spread free.

My life can be rough, but even in my pessimistic ways I tend to be an optimist.

It is not the size of a mans burden that determines his success or failure. That resides entirely in how he carries it.

Here I go, I am taking this leap and I am looking forward with as much guster as I can muster!

Wish me luck!
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