End of summer...Remembering

So this will take quite a few posts to get done. So everyone put on your seat belts open those cans of coke and enjoy the ride.

The beginning of summer was interesting to me. I didn't really know what to do with myself. I was moving away from a group of friends and gaining a bunch of new ones. I had also had a pretty interesting and not very fun fall and spring. Needless to say when summer reared its head I was terrified. Lost with little direction. So I decided that if there was one thing I needed desperately was a change. i discovered a lot about myself. I was by myself quite a bit and really enjoyed it.

The people I met and sort of re-met.

I made some amazing new friends this summer. Friends I know I will want to be in my life forever.

My best friend introduced me to another friend of hers. The three of us bonded immediately. He is this tall Norwegian handy man and super outdoorsy cool. This is one of the greatest people i have ever met. Really generous, and really kind. Afraid of scary movies but that's alright with me. I am super lucky to have a friend like this in my life. He reminds me of how strong I really am and how I can survive anything life hands me. Its good to have someone like this to remind me to be myself. Pretty sure I can count on our trio for anything.

I made a reconnection with an old friend. She's amazing. I am really glad she and I have become closer. She is one of the most beautiful people I have ever met. Intelligent, kind, logical, an activist. One of those people I know are pushing the same direction I am. Fighting the good fight. I trust this person with so many of my feeling i hide from everyone else. She gives me loads of hope in everything. I know that no matter what I tell her there are no judgements. I am truly safe with this person. I am reminded of how it feels to be absolutely human. I can freely show raw emotions and thoughts. Having a friend like this means taking yourself apart piece by piece and willingly give it to another. Her example makes me want to be a better a person, friend, sister, daughter, neighbor, volunteer, student, and artist. This person believes in me and that means so much more than I could ever explain. Did I mention she introduced me to a truly beautiful person as well?

This amazing friend introduced me to a true free spirit. This guy is too cool for words. I felt an instant friendship with this boy. He's warm, friendly, and makes you feel super lucky to be yourself just because you know him. I met this kid the day before he set out on some amazing travels. He made me instantly want to go pack a bag and go where ever the wind blows. I wish I could be that free. I feel to often that I tie myself down before I even take flight. I used to blame this valley I live in but I know its my own insecurity. I am afraid of dreaming sometimes because the thing I fear even more is failure. If there is one thing I have learned from this amazing person is when you are yourself, allow your mind to be open, and love unconditionally you can fight any fear. He is someone who loves life and every single bit about the experience. I need to just get up and go. My adventure is waiting and meeting this kid has made me want to give it a head start!

I am jumping into my fall semester of college tomorrow. I am taking every opportunity I have at SLCC to learn and grow. I know there are two things that every bird needs, a nest and wings. I am learning here in Utah and it will always be my nest. SLCC will always be my first start to how I want my life to go. It will be where, when my story is being rewritten in 5 years that it all began. My education, my dreams, my failures, my hopes, my book, my music and most of all where I started to realize who I am and who I want to be.

Now this bird is anxious for her wings to spread free.

My life can be rough, but even in my pessimistic ways I tend to be an optimist.

It is not the size of a mans burden that determines his success or failure. That resides entirely in how he carries it.

Here I go, I am taking this leap and I am looking forward with as much guster as I can muster!

Wish me luck!
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